I feel so used,
like a rag doll and abused
no one really cares,
just had me, left me, no one is there.
here i am talking to myself alone,
picking up, dialing my friends on the phone
I thought that he was there, listening to the words I had to say,
Yet he made some excuses and ran away.
I made a dua'ah and prayed my salah
To make remembrance of Allah

I feel like tired and drained,
My eyes look like drowsy, am i truly insane?
why do i feel this way? what can i do?
can someone tell me its ok sis, hang in there i'll be with you.
Taking my hand, telling me they understand
all that im going through and saying it's all apart of life
it's all comes in the package of being a good muslim wife

so is this how it's like to be used this certain way,
get what you want, doesnt matter what you do or say
i just want someone to listen to my problems and let me rant and rave,
let me be who i want to be, let me be brave
after all it's all done they can say its up to you,
do what you want to do, and i'll be here for you too.

that's all i want but it doesn't look like that in the end
looks like i lost my best friend
it's all about what he wants and what he gets and that's that
who gives a rat's behind about me and what?
oh well..
here i go..
going to sleep...maybe Allah willl help me to be patient and true
let Allah swt take care of him on the day of Judgment 2...

perhaps then he will truly see
there's more beyond me, then the beauty on the outside,
the inside of me wanting to get out and be free..