Back to School, Stand on my own two feet.

I'm back in school,
standing on my own two feet.
I have to do this, for my children's sake.
As it is us, on our own, supporting each other.

My ex who claims to be a so called righteous, religious muslim has forfeit his obligations towards supporting his children.
He or his friend says they do not owe anything to us at all islamically wise and I can't get them legal wise either since they're safely in Jordan.

He's a coward, a child, an immature, childish child that cannot handle responsibility.
Fine, you have something against me good. But, these are your children. To deny to send money to support them is cold, wrong and stupid.

You're going to regret that because kids remember, even the slightest little things.
And no matter how much I try to convince them it's your own fault for making this stupid decision.
Fine, we're not together great. We both made our choices to go our separate ways. Why not deal with it, like a man should rather then hide behind someone to "represent" you?

And when you bring blackmail into this, it's when you step over the line.

I do not feel you should work for Sunnipath, how can you work for that and still deny your children to support them?

Look on the Q and A of Sunnipath and see what it says, It clearly marks that it's the man's duty no matter what to send child support money. There's no reason at all for me or the children to be denied that and say nothing should be owed at all.
But, HEY if that's what floats your boat then that's entirely up to you.
But, I can't force the kids to like you, care for you, or even acknowledge you if you won't even acknowledge them.
But, what do you care anyways? You're going to get yourself a new family, and other children so who cares about these 3 right? Nice attitude.

Well, if ppl only knew the real truth then they really would know the games you play to get what you want. AstagfirAllah!

You Know

You know, you're asleep, or tired, when you misread something, and do a double take and see what's actually there.

So, I'm looking at the advertisement to my right hand side of Facebook. I see where it says "Nannies from Heaven." Of course though I read it as "Names from Heaven" and I'm like huh, what kind of names would fall under heaven?


Who would be the one to authorize or say that? Is that their personal opinion or some actual fact? Yeah, then I just blinked and saw that it really read as "Nannies from Heaven." even though this is also strange and weird.


I've seen some strange ads here, like this other one, buy 1 and get 1 free. You're thinking oh cool, what are they selling? You scroll down and they're selling yoga lessons. Oh so you buy a lesson and get one lesson free. Hmm.

Or how about the "lose weight" ads, how many times do we see that? Do people even have a choice whether or not they want to see or not see those ads? Or how about any ads for that matter?

I know it's Face book and that comes with the site and if we don't like the ads we can join elsewhere. But, still. It's like your rights are being violated, monitored and all by these ads that is totally messing up your computer.

It's bad enough that we walk around our neighborhood and see the billboard signs and advertisements and in the magazines on how our "society" should be like, and the "ideal man and woman" and "perfect body" and all that crap stuff, so I guess it's reasonable enough for them to do it here right? It's expected?

It's needed, because if we aren't going to see it offline because we're lazing around then we may as well get it here?I don't know, if we ever have a chance in the future to have the option not to have these ads I'd vote them to take it out and just let us fix our face book however we want to.

I don't know about the "NEW" facebook look yet, I was so use to the old one that this new one will take time. I also wish there was another way to treat this as if it was a book.

So your profile, your info is the cover page. The next page if you click on it will take you to your walls, fun walls, super walls and regular walls then the next will take you to your friends list, groups, and what nots and last but not least another page just for all the applications you have or games and all that.It'll be all looking like a book or even a newsletter and you have that option to choose it that way, in your own colors for the background and text and all.Yeah, that's a hope.

Update

It's now April, it has been 4-5 months since I last updated my blog(s).

Let's see of all the changes that happened since then.

I went for Hajj in Dec 2007. Actually my husband and I won the trip to Hajj.

I remember recieving a phone call and a man on the phone telling me that I won a trip for Hajj. I asked him how he got my number, and he told me a sister gave it to him. I asked if this was a joke. He said it wasn't a joke and that it was real. That's when I told him to talk to my husband about it.

Anyways to make a long story short, we were able to go for Hajj as long as this production company for Saudi channel 2 would be able to film a documentary on Hajj called "Journey of a Life time". So we were able to do our Hajj, yet we still had to do some filming of Hajj rites and things. It was good. It was an amazing experience. Alhamdulillah.
So, it's about 20 episodes series and if you get satellite, depending on your local area check for a show called "Journey of a Life time" Saudi channel 2, production by Waseelah Production Company.

We also moved into a new home in Dec 2007.

Isa turned 6 in Dec 2007, Daliyah turned 2 in Jan 2008, and Ibrahim turned 10 in March 2008.

There's not much really going on, except the kids are getting older and bigger.

Daliyah wants to be potty trained so she insists that diapers are only for babies and she's a big girl. She also wants to do everything on her own without me helping her or even assisting her or even telling her how to do it. She's real stubborn, and has her own set mind frame on how to do things and insists she knows how to do it even at her little young age of hers.

I'm sure she'll learn to read soon too.

Well that's basically it, except for that I'm still getting my sinusitis / migraines daily, with my allergies and asthma acting up every so now and then, once or twice a day, sometimes every other day. It's a real hassle because everyone says it's within the "jordan air". Some have said to see a naturalist or homeopathic doctor about it, but, he's very expensive and people says it's worth it. I said, yes but even if it's worth it, what if you don't have it? What if it's so expensive that you can't afford that price and if it's on a continuous regular basis how would that fit into your budget?

Yes, these people that advise this can say this to me easily because they're either single or just newlywed so they don't have any kids, or the ones that do have kids have just one, not 3 like I do.

*Sigh*
It'll get better insha'Allah I hope and pray.