2003 till now

Wow!

I signed up for this blog in early Jan 2003, and now it's June 2009.

A lot has changed in the past 6 years.

If I had known then, what I didn't know now. I wonder if I would have to go through it still?

I think and wonder that it made me a lot stronger, and looking at things from a different angle.
Usually I'd look at it this way. Now, when I glance at it. I really, really, examine it. I read it from a different point of view. I read it as if I'm in those shoes, and those are what I could/would be feeling if that happened to me.

And it makes me realize that despite all I've gone through, there are a lot of women/people that have gone through worse. There were people in the time of the Prophet SAW and the Companions (RA) that gone through struggles, and the other Prophets, and the followers during those times, and the struggles on what they went through, and the people of our ancestors and the struggles they went through to migrate to this place, and dealing with the discrimination that they faced.
And the ones now dealing with the struggles and pressures of today. The media, the society, the environment, this whole recession going on, with the economy going down, and people losing their jobs, and not having a lot!

Take it from me, from a person that was born and brought up in Canada, and having all these privileges available and resources easily accesible. And going to other places in where these things are not easily available all the time, it was quite a struggle.
You learned to appreciate it, even the essence of the quality and quantity of water, the pressure of water available, and not having to wait for the water to heat up, and going through a water tank and waiting for the water tank man to come fill it up.

*Sigh*

From a person that had to go through that, plus the emotional, verbal, and other types of abuse in a relationship, in a marriage in where we're suppose to completely put our trust in each other, and careth, and love and patience, understanding and all, that it all comes down to boil to this.


abuse is never ok.....it's a crime against human law, and against islamic law. If people want to flash the islamic law cards at me, then you have to go through it all the way, and go according to what it says all the time. It's not a pick and choose and do whatever suits you kind of thing.
If it doesn't work for you, you can do without.

It's real annoying that we have to always apologize for something we didn't do, or something we did do to excuse for the abuse taking place. But, when you stand up for your rights, and stand up for this cause, you have the upper hand. You have that firm to say, you won't take this anymore and there's no one that can tell you otherwise.
No one that can bully you, or intimidate you into keeping it quiet and all "hush" "hush".

There can be people that spread such things to discredit you, because they are afraid people will believe you and not be with them.
That's their problem if they promote/support abusers to continue abusing because they want to keep them pleased and bring the money in.
Allahu Alim.

I can honestly say, that people like that have the disease in their hearts. They feel the rules of Islam, and rules of the world only apply to other people and not to them. They feel that they are exempted from it, from the responsibilities because Allah understands their pressures and knows. Yes, it's true Allah Knows All!
And Knows Best.
But, by saying that, you sure be aware of the intention, and if your intention isn't pure, and real then really what is the point?