my mom was here just the other day,
She brought along my kids and didnt want to stay
She said how much of a mess
that I've becomeand how much I resemble the life of a bum.
I was so upset and I started to cry
I asked her what made her say that and why
She shook her head and said don't you know
your life
is for your kids, family, not some silly show.
She didn't understand that I wanted to do

She said this dunya is important working on it too
She said it is better if you get a job and work
and send your kids to school, dont be a jerk.
I excused myself and left the room
slammed the door kaboom.
went to my computer and sat on the floor
I said how much can I take?
possibly no more.
I made dua'ah and said a prayer
Went downstairs and said im not a player
I told her I knew what was best for me
and if she truly loved me, respected me she'd see
The true beauty inside wanting to come out
Wanting to increase my deen, my dhikr a shout
She said that's not the best you can do
I'm only saying this to you because it's true
I told her Thank you, but no thanks I'm fine
My family is ok, my kids are with me as they're mine
I know what's best for them as I'm a mother that cares
I'm different in raising them as I'm willing to share
Even though I'm raising them in a different tone of light
I'm teaching them right from wrong without a fight.
This is best for me and I hope you will agree
This is my life, my family, its not all about me.
It's about teaching others, learning, and most of all benefitting
instead of wasting time watching tv,
listening to music and just basically doing nothing by sitting.
what's wrong with that she asks this is what you use to do
I said that figures look at me that's why im a mess cuz of you.
She said that hurt and I said now you know,
How I must feel that you're understand
I must go
she said fine do whatever you want to do
but when stuff happens to you dont come crying to me
as my help to you is through
I said why wont you support me and just let me on my own
She said you're not ready yet, as I moan and groan.

She said the time is not right,
and your father and I know best
We know this is a Test,
better than the rest.
I told her look I'm almost reaching an older age,
You got to let me go, make my own decisions let me out of the cage.
She said is that what you think that I've trapped you within
I said looks like it, feels like it, thick and thin.
That's when my dad said that's enough let her do her life
That's her duty as she's married as a muslim wife.
I said thank you and i really value, respect you
so
I said I thank you for helping me
but this is my life i must show They said ok fine...
we'll be behind you all the way
We just dont want you to leave and go astray
I told them that is fine and I wouldnt dare to slip
And im sorry for yelling at them and giving them lip
then they said that was fine as this was what I had to do
get it all out of my system,
not hold it inside as its apart of you.So that's my story...
it's nearly at the endmy kids are back with me, my parents and I have made ammends.Alhamdulillah,
this life gives you one test after another
and in the end we are all still muslim sisters and brothers.